why am i not sleeping right now? i wanted to go to sleep almost 2 hours ago and i cannot. i am not tired. but i am also bored and cannot relax. tv isnt doin it. snacks didn't do it. book didn't do it. music didn't do it. perhaps i am insomnia-ing because my mind is a lil wrapped up and confused about the rick warren broadcast and having no idea who to vote for now and fearing ppl will yell at me because i truthfully am now leaning towards McCain when i was so faithfully supporting Obama before...i mean I voted for Obama at the caucuses for pete's sake. But i dunno...when we think long term McCain seems dedicated to fighting injustices in other countries and ensuring our freedom and protection here in the US as well. His morality and ethics most closly align with the biblical worldview where Obama just seems like he wants to please everyone and not ruffle feathers. This seems more post modern to me. In the rick warren interviews, Obama stammered and seemed nervous cos he knew he needed to give the "right" answer in order to win over the evangelical voters but McCain seemed more at ease and gave straight answers. I enjoyed his bluntness even though I didn't agree with every word he said. So yeah i dunno. i don't have to decide tonight but it's some food for thought i suppose.

Oprah is on talking about prowlers and intuition/fear or something. There's a weight loss infomercial on, Hollywood Insider, someone waiving a Bible around, some make money infomercial, a lame talkshow, the antique roadshow, and a blind date show. Quality tv at 1:30am. I want to sleep. Pooo.

i respect respectful men. men who sincerely listen to God and choose to follow God. there are so many who don't or who say they do but choose the truth's they like and ignore others or who just go in it half heartedly or quarter heartedly. a man who loves God loves others. a man who loves God cares less about satisfying his own personal desires and more about the legacy he will leave.

(i respect great Godly women as well, but this is what's on my heart right now)